Reality

i dont know what to do and say these days. i feel a little bit torn out, a little bit tired and a lot of boredom.

i am a dreamer. i am dreaming of this life that i know i want and believe that i wouldnt get. i realise this through the reality of my real world. i know very well my limitations and i abide by them.

but i dream at night of my alter world where my limitations can be determined by me. dreams that feel so real that i awake believing that it is true.