Why

Why are we a certain way? Why do we wish to do something different if we get the chance and then still do the same shit. Well everyone may not be like this, but some of us are. I can be like that sometimes, but I am a work in progress. We all have many regrets which can be a burden if we do not know how to put it behind us. Some things just like to come back to hunt us and it is very sad. I wonder if i get the chance to change something from my past, if I would? I really cannot answer that question unless it depends on a certain situation. We all learn from our regrets and humilating moments. It has made us the way we are and all we can do is feel proud, if we can feel proud.

Just a simple thought.

oh my, this is me

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

update

just saying i am still here. i having nothing really to post. nothing funny or strange to report.

Meditation

It have been a while since I posted the way I used to. I used this blog to put down my fears, my thoughts and my troubling thoughts. Writing, in this case, typing was my form of meditation. These days, my thoughts have been on the future, but I didn't need to really post on it was I was meditating a different way. I recently learned to crochet. I would start at around 7pm or 8pm at night crocheting to 2am in the morning. Usually, my bedtime would have been at 2 am, so this just give me something to do. While I am crocheting, I usually think about my future. What plans I would make? What kind of life I would lead? If I would to get married? If I was to live somewhere else? I run through my thoughts so fast these days that I hardly write or type any more. I am, sometimes, more calm.

With anything that I learn, once I like what I learn, I improved. And always keep improving. I go to this crocheting site for free patterns or ideas. I have made doilies, potholders, a teddy bear, skull caps and several other things. The best that I have made was a filet doily with my name "JOSIE". It is white. I can't describe it any better than that.

The New Year Wishes

I sometimes feel that I cannot make wishes. I am sometimes afraid to make wishes. Sometimes, I am unsure what to wish for.

The new year has started and I don't really know what I want. Well, I in all truth I know, but I am still a little confused about what I want.