Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Playlist


I joke and tell my friends that I get high every day. High from music. YUH FEEL ME!!!!

My playlist this weekend:

01. Smoke marijuanna - Sizzla
02. Touch Me - Sizzla
03. King With A Crown - Matisyahu
04. Give Me A Try - Sizzla
05. Bird Pepper - Khari Kill
06. Ghetto Story - Baby Cham
07. Bed Noise - Lady Saw
08. Dutty Wine - Ton Matterhorn
09. Last Night - Dr. Evil
10. Baduizm - Erykah Badu

Monday, May 22, 2006

Inner voice

If I listen to my inner voice, would I like to hear what she has to say? Will I tune her out as she is getting to root of me? My inner voice is the most soft spoken person I have ever heard. She is usually gentle but firm with me. However, I block out things I don't to hear. I looma ther each day in the mirror.

"I will smile when you smile.'

I tried to smile.

'Don't force anything. You have nothing to prove to me. I just want you happy"

I looked straight into her eyes. I search for everything that is wrong and everything that is good. Usually, they say things that are good can outweigh everything that is bad. But is that really the truth?

I don't lie to my inner voice nor does she fool me. We have an undertanding that we are one, and through this life we are both living together. I face the world, and she face my inner world. But out of the two which is more dangerous?

Just don't

I have low self-esteem. I have come to trms with that an dI have learn ways to make myself stronger. One method is not to give one fuck. That is a high-flying fuck. I have learned to shrug most shit off. But the one thing I can not stand is being the topic of a conversation. I mean, I can not stop some one from talking about me but don't let me hear or don't let me about. I am not going to do nothing out of the way, but I just hate being a subject. Be it good or bad, I dont like it. Which is odd, cause leos suppose to love attention. I only want attention from guys I like.

Do some things.

I took this from Trent's.

THE RULES: List up to ten (10) things you want to say to ten (10) different people. Do not state who these people are. Do not confirm or deny any "comment speculation."

01. I had like you, but you was using me. I don't care for you to change my mind, I know the truth within me.
02. I like how you make me blush. I use every muscle in my body not to kiss you that day.
03. We grew up as best friends, but you push me aside everytime you had a boyfriend. Now, you only know me when you want something.
03. You were the best boyfriend I had, though it was a short time.
04. I didn't care what you had to say about me, because I know you was jealous of me.
05. You died, but I didn't know you was sick. I am sad that you didn't get to meet me, but you made me feel bad me.
06. I know that you are a good friend but at times you annoy me.
07. I know you claim to like me, I can not trust you.
08. You wanted to control me, but I rather have no friends than to be a fool.
09. I can understand that you like me, but I jusnt can't like you.
10. Oh, just fucking shut up!

I say ... and you think ... ?

1. Yours :: Mines
2. Charcoal :: Sky
3. Platitude :: Hope
4. Graduation :: Ball
5. Hungry :: Full
6. Somewhere :: At Home
7. Nurse :: Doctor
8. Freak :: Lone
9. Unbelievable :: Ripbleys
10. Walk :: Run

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Updating

I am giving it another chance again. I love anything to do with bobo shanti. In my heart, I like to believe am a rasta.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Empty posts

Well, the post title Understand was not suppose to be empty. I was typing that post from my mobile post, because I was able of leaving comment for bloggers. But after I had type it out and post it. I saw on my blog, that it was empty. It is just the laziness in my to type it over. I will get to it.

Well yea

My mom loves to wake me up by talking to me. She just likes to do that, and I don't understand why. Now when I have a day off, I like to sleep. The time was around 8:15am. She came and wame me up the other morning by saying "Jo, come help sweep the yard". My reply, "Hmm. Yea, just let me roll on my belly first." Then she left he room. After a while she came, "Oh gosh, get up Jo!" My reply, "Well, you see I haven't roll on my belly." Then she left again, and I heard from outside after a while, "Get up Jo." So I did. I squinted my way outside and helped sweep the yard.

Later down in the day, I laugh at my replies.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Sunday, May 07, 2006

designing designing

well i trying to give my blog a little different look. now i realise that mozilla firefox showing everything fine and internet explorer showing the side bar is at the bottom of the posts. i will try to fix that tomorrow.

poem

My love for you

Each day I wake with a stronger,
Deeper love for you.
I don't need to make room for you.
Nor do I need to stop
Loving anyone else to love you more.
My love for you
Can reach as wide as the horizon.
In my heart,
My room for you is infinite

Places to live

Though my country is not perfect, and I know it isn't, I
really can not see myself living anywhere else but here. But
if I had to choose, my first choice would be Greece. Now, I
know nothing about the country. I just know that I like Greek
mythology. My other choice would be New York. I am impress
about that city. Plus I had loved Sex and the City.

I have never travel in my life, only in my most creative dreams.
I have seen some of the most beautiful places when I dream.
Places where I experience love and war, joy and sorrow. In my
dreams, I am capable of doing so much, it makes me sad sometimes
knowing my reality is different. In my dreams, I am a fighter.
I kind of like that as in reality, I am quiet and never been
in a fight.

But I guess best place to live is in the heart of your soul
mate. Yup, that sounds kind of corny. I live in my mind. In a
world that is base around my reality.

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Fwd email

Let us consider this story for a moment. This was a forward email that I had received. It was a beautiful story and decided to share it. But before I had click forward, I ask myself a question. Who in the right mind will be stuck on an island and ask for nothing? If I was stuck, I wasn't staying by myself for one, and I would pray hard and long for a way off the island. But I undertand the moral of the story but still, human nature to me isn't like that.

Two Survivors

A voyaging ship was wrecked during a storm at sea and only two of the men on it were able to swim to a small, desert like island.

The two survivors, not knowing what else to do, agree that they had no other recourse but to pray to God.

However, to find out whose prayer was more powerful, they agreed to divide the territory between them and stay on opposite sides of the island.

The first thing they prayed for was food.

The next morning, the first man saw a fruit-bearing tree on his side of the Land, and he was able to eat its fruit.

The other man's parcel of land remained barren.

After a week, the first man was lonely and he decided to pray for a wife.

The next day, another ship was wrecked, and the only survivor was a woman who swam to his side of the island. On the other side of the island, there was nothing.

Soon the first man prayed for a house, clothes, more food.

The next day, like magic, all of these were given to him; however, the
Second man still had nothing.

Finally, the first man prayed for a ship, so that he and his wife could
leave the island. In the morning, he found a ship docked at his side of the island.

The first man boarded the ship with his wife and decided to leave the second man on the island.

He considered the other man unworthy to receive God's blessings, since none of his prayers had been answered.

As the ship was about to leave, the first man heard a voice from heaven
Booming, "Why are you leaving your companion on the island?"

"My blessings are mine alone, since I was the one who prayed for them," the first man answered.

"His prayers were all unanswered and so he does not deserve anything."

"You are mistaken!" the voice rebuked him. "He had only one prayer, which I answered. If not for that, you would not have received any of my blessings."

"Tell me," the first man asked the voice, "what did he pray for that I should owe him anything?"

"He prayed that all your prayers be answered."

For all we know, our blessings are not the fruits of our prayers alone, but those of another praying for us.

This is too good not to share. With obedience come blessings.

My prayer for you today is that all your prayers are

answered.
Be blessed!

"What you do for others is more important than what you do for yourself"

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

My birthright

My birthright through my mom is my drawing skills, my comedic timing and my foul mouth. From my mom and my aunts, I know the art of cussing. My aunts are the masters really. I usually and always surprise people the first time they hear me cuss. Like my friend says "the first time you hear josie cuss, you will be taken aback, then you will realise how normal she can sound when she swear". I don't practice to just walk down the road and curse people. My appearance at all times is always quiet.

Another one of my friends ask a day, "What makes fuck a bad word". I don't really see it as a bad word. I see it was a way of getting a point across. Not all people can understand politeness, some only know to response to bad attitudes and harsh words.

The kind of person I am, I reflect the way you treat me on you. You give me attitude, I will give you back attitude. And then I will smile. The kind of person I am, I can not hide my facial expression. And why would I want to.

So yes, I can use swear words like it is part of my native language. But it is just simple words. It is just the way it is use it is offensive.

What a fucking thing!!!

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Empty

Though my eyes can run over everything on a male body, I especially like to watch their mouth and eyes. This co-worker on mines, his eyes kind of made an impression on me. It isn't a good or bad impression. It isn't "Damn! Your eyes are fine" kind of thing. It is that when I look at his eyes, it just seem empty. I mean I don't understand why I am getting that feeling, but looking at his eyes, it seem dull and dead.

For some reason, that damn thing is haunting me. Well, it will haunt until I fall asleep and til whenever I see him again.

Beep Beep Ah Toot Toot

I don't know why I title my post that, It just came to me. Well, I guessing I am just passing by so stop and take notice. I have been up to pretty nothing these days. Just work and home. I am on training for work and I am just waiting on lunch. So, beep beep ah toot toot. Later I will type a better post.