Just don't

I have low self-esteem. I have come to trms with that an dI have learn ways to make myself stronger. One method is not to give one fuck. That is a high-flying fuck. I have learned to shrug most shit off. But the one thing I can not stand is being the topic of a conversation. I mean, I can not stop some one from talking about me but don't let me hear or don't let me about. I am not going to do nothing out of the way, but I just hate being a subject. Be it good or bad, I dont like it. Which is odd, cause leos suppose to love attention. I only want attention from guys I like.