2006 is coming but here

One of my friends made the comment today that this year was memorable year. That is a very true statement. This year, to the world and my country, it had bless moments and it had terrible moment, However, personally, this year has been good to me. Thank God for that and I am very grateful to Him. This year has been the first year that I ever worked and with the same company so that was good.
So this year I am thankful for all the friends I made, even if it was for a brief moment. I am thankful that I am more independent. But most I am thankful for the life that was given to me. And, of course, I am thankful for the blogging community. I consider you guys my friends. Like I said before, in posts so long ago, you guys know more about me than friends I see everyday. So I wish you all a blessed 2006, and I hope that you fruitful in all your endeavours.

Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!

The love I seek

The love I seek
Where shall I find it.
My heart is calling,
And awaiting your answer.
Answer me true,
My soul dies
Without your response.
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When it comes to matters of the heart, I am very reserved. I believe in fate, tru love and soul mates. I know that I will have to give fate a helping hand and make some decisions. Some correct and and fruitful decisions. Since i was small, and understood what love is, I always imagine my true love. A love so pure and true, that you believe that your life was a fairy tale. I know I can find my soul mate. I hope that he is looking for me as well.

Friends for you

I heard one of my friends saying today that her best friend is annoying her these days. I plainly told her that people have their moments. We all have our moments when our friends get on our nerves. That is when you and that friend just need some space. Even with that before mentioned friend of mines, I needed space from her. She is a nice person, but she has this mentality of everything going her way. These are very small things like, not opening a door, not pressing the elevator buttons and other little things that I wouldn't mention. But what I really need space for, is that girl don't stick to time. OH MY GOD. That girl forever late. I can not stand it no more. Saturday gone was the last straw. I am not going anywhere with her if it is just me and her. I don't like waiting so long. And I have a lot of patience. Once I waited from 11 o'clock to quarter to 3 for this girl. The only reason I didn't leave yet is because I went by a friend that was working on the mall.
That is friends for you, but I not waiting so long again. She said she wanted to go in town early Saturday. She said that she wanted to leave 12 noon for the latest. I ended up leaving home 2:30pm. I mean I was all happy at home but as I left the house and walked out into that hot frigging sun, I just got upset and sour. Imagine being in town, hot sun, and people bumping into you and stores closing. No lie, that day I didn't do one fart, but I was just tired.
So I am promising myself not to be waiting on her so long again. And I wouldn't.

Also with this friend, she likes to do good. Meaning, she like to play the good samaritan role. Nothing wrong with that but it comes into play at the wrong times. We leave from work a night and decided to walk to the transport station. Now, on the road it is just three of us. Me and her on one side and a strange ass man on the other. Now, all of sudden, I am hearing someone shouting "Time Please. Excuse. Time Please!". At my side, I seeing my friend slowing down to address this man concerns. I told her not to stop. Also seeing that I was wearing my jacket. I told her that man doesnot know I have a watch. But still, she stop and give him the time. After, I told her when the place looking like this, meaning all dark, lonely and scary, not to stop to answer any strange man. He over on that side, he don't need to know the time, he just playing the fool cause he see us. I was just glad that little lower down the road was a bar, cause he was following us in a way.

True Words

I was watching "Woman, Thou Art Loose" lastnight on BET. During a conversation with T.D. Jakes and the leading lady, she said to him "Don't confuse talent with skill. Anyone can learn a skill." That is very true. But when does a skill cross into a talent?

Whatever you are by nature, keep to it; never desert your line of talent. Be what nature intended you for and you will succeed.

To know how to hide one's ability is great skill.

We are all born with a talent that is just ours. We were never taught how to use it or do it but we just knew. Well, I know I can draw so that is one talent that I recognize. Also, I consider my creativity a talent.

I learned how to crochet sometime November last year. The kind of person that I am, I always try to better myself or learned to do something different. Since learning to crochet, I have made hats, doilies, filets, candle holder cozies, chaplets and teddy bears. The one thing I learned on my own is how to read the patterns instructions. My aunties and my neighbour crochet their things from watching a picture and counting on the finish product.

The first teddy bear that I made I named Blue Black Bear. I made that last year christmas. One of my mummy friends came over, saw it and shake the living cuteness out of the teddy bear. It wasn't stuff good to begin with but when she put it down it was lopsided. But the second teddy that I made last month, I named Pink Sweater Bear. You can see that this toy was made with more love and patience. And no one is going to shake this teddy bear. They can touch it in my hand and may be hold. But the first sign of shaking, I going to take it away.

Explaining Your Emotions Sweetly

Explaining Your Emotions Sweetly (EYES)

On paper, we speak our words.
From the stare of your eyes,
I know what you want to say.
Our emotions will be stronger,
Than our words will ever be.
You do not need to speak,
I heard everything you said.
Look at my smile,
You know my reply.
Take note of my eyes,
It will say all just like your eyes.

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What other reasons are there that means you shouldn’t be a man. For example, the guy has a girlfriend or a wife, is a good reason not to be with him. But besides that, what other limitations are out there? Here is my story that surrounds my question.

There is an employee at a fast food restaurant that I buy from every now and again. He is a very handsome guy and always looking at me. So one day, I ask for a bag and he told me that he was deaf. First, I thought he was playing “de ass” as I thought I heard him said that he was deaf, but it was just my mind hearing the words from his actions. Every time he sees me, he just stares at me. Now, I blush very easy. I just stand there sometimes, make my order, watch him, start to smile, start to blush and then I got to look down to stop from blushing. Sometimes, I would like to know what he is thinking. Before he used stay from afar and just stare at me but the last time I went in, he got a little braver. He came to the front, and nodded making sure that I know he was watching me. My friend says that we a little thing going on there. But I doubt. I just blush easy. Very easy.

I don't think my story makes sense but has me blush like this for some time now. I figure that it is mostly curiousity that has me blushing like that. That stare is just so powerful.

Do you know

How much do you change? Do people realise when they make that simple change in their life? When do you realise that you are getting older? To me, only when you reach a certain age does things start to click. I do believe that there is a mummy clock inside women. Mines haven't alarm as yet but friends of mines are being wake up by that clock. I wish sometimes that there is no need to always think about life and where things would lead to with certain decisions. I wish that we don't have to question every little thing, but it wouldn't be life if we didn't do these things.
I admire people who know what career they like. Who have found their passion and held on to it. Once, I secretly thought about being a housewife but that was just me trying to escape from life. I have many questions for life, but I don't want to ask them. I want in time that my answers will be answered in due time. Without being ask. I want to be enlightened.
So that is for now. I will return to life that I just pause from.