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I am a funny sort of person. And I know this. I have know that for years. Where most people would have been "creak creak" about something, I would be "blah blah". But only according to what. I know that I can not do anything competitively. For all the speed and strength that I had would just go to waste as soon as it turns into a competition. I hate to lose the joy I had for something. I have experience that few times and it is sickening.