Reflecting

At the beginning of this post, I had a very good topic to typed about. But then, my mom was talking to me and the idea just started to slip until it was gone. Even though I had started to type, I couldn't get back my flow of thought. So I just backspaced everything.

But before that thought, I was listening to a song and wondered where they get their inspiration and creativity. These days I am searching within myself. I am just searching to see what I will find, what I will like about me and what I will hate. But the best why to see your myself is through another one's perspective. But whose's perspective will you value. It is very easy to dismiss one's comments who you dislike and take to heart remarks from a love one. I know what I am at this moment and all I can be is happy. This is the happiest I have ever been about myself. I wouldn't for anything say "in my life".

While I am at work, and have nothing to do which is sort of rare these days, I write. I write to appear busy. These are some of the things I wrote. Well, they may not make sense but I was just writing for appearance purposes.

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(1)
"What if, What if"

What if, what if
A phrase I hate to
Start my thoughts with.
What if cannot bring
Change to my past.
Only pain and more
regret for the future.

What if, what if
A phrase I used to
Explain and express my dreans.
What if can summons
My desires and shine
Light on my dreams.

(2)
I Rise

The day I rise and I understand who I am is the day I found myself.
My search from now is to understand me, believe inme, be happy with me.
My goal is to make accomplishments I am or will be happy or proud of.
It is me to live my life.
To make decisions and choices according to me.

(3)
What I See

I am standing on a stair which makrs "career". This is where I make my decision. What carrer appeals to me? Which fiel will be rewarding? I need to have an idea at least.

(4)
Peace At Night

I smile into the sky
As I step into the ocean.
As I walk to the horizon
My fingertips playfully
graze the surface.
I smule at the sky
Just one last time
As I carry myself
Below the horizon.

(5)
Night's Eyes

Standing, looking up in the sky,
I saw the beautiful night sky eyes.
I look past these eyes
And into my own soul.
I heard a depress sigh
With a face that is glowing.
I felt to fly into the sky and swim
Amongst these beautiful eyes.

(6)
Do

What is there to do when there is nothing to do. Now I feel notice. Big red sign I am. Flashing its bright colours.

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At the end of this posting session, I remembered what I orginially wanted to say but I changed my mind.